Just is....

Being married for 20 years teaches you a few things.
Love is not just the gooey fizzy feeling you get when that special someone thinks you're something special too. It's cleaning up the mud from the flood at 1am when you have a big meeting in the morning. And having fun, laughing while you clean.
Committment is not something that happens when its easy. It happens when it's really, super hard to commit to someone who is pissing you off. And you still love them, even when they totally suck.
Sometimes it's you who totally suck. And you don't deserve to be loved, but that is not at all what it's about. You deserve to be loved and cherished, even when you're being stupid. And sucky.
And sometimes everyone forgets that it's about loving when unloveable, and committing when it's hard. And you have to go back and figure it all out again. But you do it, because the alternative is that you don't.
And it's all worth it. Every last second of painful, wretched trying. Because it is. It just is.